But then I have just decided to visit Skyrock for at least one minute, just checking and see this: Okay what is this Skyrock. Is this a bad joke.
"Originality"? Which originality are you speaking from? You have the wrong blog, Skyrock. Even though I love that stylish beautiful golden sash.
And if that wasn't already enough of a surprise:
Wait I thought I have been removed as source because I was for too long inactive and nobody wants an inactive lame-ass as source. I am the source blog for two sources?! Wait I cannot hold that responsibility! D:
To be honest, I am really happy about it but it was just that big of a surprise, I couldn't handle it xD And I thought that I'm not gonna get Blog Star time because I already was one (before the internationalization of Skyrock). The last time I was I didn't even know what Blog Star is and totally messed up like in I didn't use the whole Blog Star thing for my good xD
So... I am now a nominator for the Blog Star of the year? owo This Year-Blog Star thingy was before my shine-time so I am eager to participate and lose :'DD in it.
My heart is breaking. I'm listening to a Korean song.
When you have a fight with him Sometimes you cry And feel sad and blue I become hopeful My heart aches secretly Then just a hint of your smile Can make feel fine again To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you Coz then we would drift apart I hold my breath, bite my lips Oh, please leave him and come to me.
And he pops into my mind. I don't seem to get over him. He's my first love. I promised him I'd never stop loving him because i thought we would last, but we didn't. now, i can't actually stop loving him. what if he is the one?
I don't wanna listen to music anymore. it keeps reminding me of him, of each moment i had with him.
"I love you so much, Noor. OK?" He said that back in August. I came back from the hospital. he called me randomly because he missed me. He was waiting for his car to be fixed. That's how our conversation ended "I love you so much, Noor. OK?". That was the first time i heard him pronounce these words. Ever since then, he never stopped saying them.
I remember the first time I told him I had a crush on him. It was on the 29th May 2011, at 1.19 a.m. He told me he loved me. The next morning, for the first time he talked to me first. He asked me how i was doing and it was so weird talking to me after the last conversation. It was odd, indeed. but, it felt good. I'll never forget that day.
I'm not the kind of person who would have a lot of crushes, or likes. I can only have a crush on one person. and that crush lasts for a long time. With him, it lasted longer than expected. Maybe because it developed into deep, mad love. I'm still passionate about him. It's always been him, and no one else.
I was never perfect no, but I'd never let it go To a point I'm raging', throwing, making you uncomfortable What he did to you was unacceptable You claimed everything was okay, That's impossible Just know I'm here for you, all clear for you from night to sun Gotta be near to you, the feel of you gives me a rush It makes me feel that what we had was real It could never be too late.
He made my life complete for some time. now, he's making me miserable. seeing what he has become pains me to death. i wonder where have our endless conversations gone? our long phone calls? I wonder if he actually still remembers any of this.
I remember the first time he talked to my mom. he told her i never took care of myself. I wonder if he knows that ever since he said, i've been taking care of myself for him so he'd not nag. Now, he never nags. I hate how he used to complain all the time, now i miss it. probably it's the thing i miss most about him.
I remember how he used to get jealous from All Time Low. it drove me crazy. i loathed him at times like that. now, i'm crying my eyes about it because i miss his jealous. he cared. he actually cared.
All the dreams we'd built on our desperate hopes. The late night conversations. The music we heard. The jealousy we felt. The pain we suffered from. The long phone calls. The endless skype conversations.
I miss everything about you. I'm sorry I'm still in love with you.
Big salute to all my lovely followers wherever you are. Thanks for checking up on me although I haven't been on here for a very long time.
I have recently moved to the Bay Area, San Francisco, California. It's been almost month now and I have finally decided to stop being lazy and actually write something as some of you guys have been asking what my plans were, and where I am.
I flew to California from Washington on the 9th August. The flight was very pleasant, but it was delayed for an hour. It took me 5 hours to get to California. It was really tiring and I had nothing to eat. So, I was pretty much hungry.
I met my host family later on that day. I am living with a young, non-married couple in Millbrae. They are really awesome. We are living in an apartment near downtown Millbrae. They are treating me like their own kid and we have very interesting and funny conversations.
I started school on August 14th. I am taking: Algebra 3-4, Economics, AP physics and English 7. I don't consider my school community service classes to be classes as they are really cool, and I don't do a lot of stuff (helping people learn English, correcting homework, etc). I love my school. Everyone is super nice to me, and all myteachers are quite funny and helpful.
I have been to a lot of different places. Now, I know how to use the train and I evn went to San Francisco by myself. We usually go tot he countryside on the weekends. Today, I saw my first American movie in a very cool American theater and I really like that. I also went to a rope course yesterday with some exchange students and my cluster coordinator.
I will try to write an article or two per week so I can keep track of my memories and keep you guys updated. Thanks so much for the comments, hearts and following. I really appreciate it.